Trust vs. Truth

What I really dislike about you is that whenever I tell the truth, you have to think otherwise. I am not lying to you. I made mistakes, doesn't mean you need to keep track of daily reminders of the things I did. I learned, and best believe those mistakes won't be made again. Why can't you trust me? I tell you the truth, you don't trust it. What do I have to do to make you believe me? Do I have to lie to you again to prove your point? Do I have to prove that you've been right all along, that I can't be trusted? What the fuck do you want me to do? I can't keep acting like nothing's wrong, because there is something wrong. I can't live through this shit another day. And I am not saying I wanna kill myself. But why can't you just trust me? Why do I have to always prove to you when you could just believe me? Maybe that's how I first crashed into a pit full of mistakes. I cried last night. Telling me I won't graduate from high school, that I won't get into a college. Who the fuck are you to tell me what I can and can not do in my life? You think I would actually won't give a fuck about school and just watch my own downfall? You think I am capable of that shit? You think I would drown myself in self pity? You think i'm vulnerable? Yea, you guys are my parents, my own blood. But bringing me down to the point of self destruction won't make me say in the future that you guys were right. Nah, what would've been "right" was to never listen to ya'll. Do you guys even love me? Fuck I can't handle this anymore.